Is to die for.
Baby boy you make my heart skip beats. I'm to the point that even when I have a chance to take a good nap, I really can't. I went out by myself today to do some shopping/errands. I thought about you the whole time. I dread going back to work/clinical. I know I will cry and miss you like crazy.
It blows my mind that it was over two weeks ago that you, your daddy, and I were cuddled up in the hospital bed together. I'm sure it looked weird and might have been awkward for the nurses but daddy and I hadn't got to cuddle in a long time considering the long ordeal known as your birth. It felt good and next thing I knew I was waking up from a majorly refreshing nap.
I always sucked at keeping a journal when I was a kid so I will be honest and say that I will try my best to keep up on here.
I'm sitting here typing and you are in your sling peacefully watching the lights and sometimes watching me type. ...and I just noticed that you are falling asleep. Ok I will allow a nap since your bed time isn't for a few more hours.
In the meantime I'm going to try really hard to work on more research stuff and try to resist smelling your hair constantly. Formula spit-up and all, I love the baby smell....my baby. One thing I will NOT miss is the smell of is your disposable diapers. I'm pretty excited to switch to cloth diapers (seriously, the cloth diapers of today are so stinking cute!). It is all rather confusing and ovewhelming but I think it is best due to cost affordability and not to mention that each diaper takes over 500 years to disintegrate in a land fill. Seriously...gross. It might be hard to get your dad fully on board but once he sees the cost difference he may very well change his mind :) Your grandma had several diapers made for you so that is super exciting. Everyone will be expecting more pix of you in those too of course!!!!
My sweet baby is 18 days old....and I fall more in love every day.
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